Long time no see... or read. 😊 It's been roughly a year and a half since my last post. Crazy how time flies.
You may want to reread my last post to get up to date on all things Jill.
Here's a brief look into my health as of right now. I am currently taking a shit load of pills for a shit load of problems. Let's see...I have Lupus, Fibromyalgia, Diabetes, Lipedema, Hypothyroidism, high cholesterol, Spondylolisthesis, Osteoarthritis, Sleep Apnea...I'm sure there's more. 🤷♀️ Plus I am still fighting with Cushing's Syndrome only because I am taking a dose higher than needed of Hydrocortisone, which is a hormone replacement for Cortisol. My body is not responding well when I try to wean off. So...I am taking it really slow. In the meantime, my body still has too much Cortisol which puts extra stress on my body internally. On a positive note...my blood sugar numbers are GREAT! Woohoo!!
I think the biggest problem I have right now is mobility. My knees are crap and my legs are weighed down because of the Lipedema (find my blog post about that one 🙄). So, it is a struggle to do anything requiring walking or standing. My legs scream at me with just a little bit of walking. It's VERY frustrating! And it limits me SO much.
Enough about that stuff. Now...what's going on with my life that isn't health related.... 🤔
My kids...
Colby is on a church mission for 2 years (1 year already served) in Tanzania, Africa. Yes. AFRICA. And. AND! He had to learn Swahili! Say whaat??😳 Honestly though, I think it suits his personality very well. The first few months were hell for him, but after that, his Swahili got better and he got a new companion which helped tremendously! So far, he's continued to have good companions. Let's pray he continues to. 🙏🤞
Brett is going to the University of Central Missouri working towards a Computer Science degree. He's a computer nerd, just like his dad. Thank the Lord for that one! 🙌 In addition to that, he works part time at Papa Murphy's, and he has went down an entrepreneurial path of buying video games, figures and consoles on Ebay and FB Marketplace to turn around and resell them to make a profit. He's doing really well too!
Sydney just graduated high school with lots of awards and a GPA of over 4.0. She currently has been looking for a job, but hasn't found one yet. She's applied to a lot of places, but just hasn't had any luck. Hopefully she'll find something soon. 🤞 She starts college at the Community College next week, taking some "boring" classes in addition to a couple fun ones. Her passion is in theatre, backstage management mainly, so she has her eyes set on that right now. Althoooough... after watching the movie "Twisters", she's thinking storm chasing sounds pretty cool. 😳 Uhhhh. Please no.
Now back to me... lol
Right now I'm feeling a little lost because my Stay at Home Mom job has completely changed since all my children are now out of high school and my youngest will be an ADULT next month. I can't believe I'm THAT old!! I'm currently taking a Veterinary Assistant course through the Community College Continuing Education program. And let me just tell you how under used my brain has been over the last 20+ years. My memory and ability to retain information is practically non existent. Which is incredibly frustrating!! 😤 I hope when it's over I will have learned at least a little something. 🤷♀️
The thing is, at this time in my life, this transition period, is extremely scary for me. I have so much fear to go out into the real world again. I have looked for jobs within the Veterinary field and talk myself out of applying because of all the limitations I have physically PLUS my ability to learn new things in a timely matter, is questionable. Last year, I worked at the front desk of an animal shelter for about 3 hours, and then quit because I completely panicked at how much computer stuff I had to learn.
I never used to be this afraid of my abilities. My body is crap, my brain is crap...what do I have to offer any employer at this point. Those are the thoughts going through my head. I feel so unproductive right now. My kids are grown. I don't have a job. I'm not enjoying sewing right now so my business is on hold at the moment. Mike has been such a huge support though. He NEVER makes me feel bad and always encourages me to do whatever it is that interests me at the time. Regardless of my lack of the ability to retain information, I am enjoying this Vet Assistant course and will continue to work on that. In the meantime, I am working on my body to get it back in shape, and taking this class will hopefully reboot my brain to be able to learn new things again. 🙏🙏🙏 I WILL get myself back on track. I refuse to let fear hold me back. I just have to be compassionate with where I'm at right now. Do what I need to do to get myself back on track and get past this transition period.
